Mid-week randomicity

It sucks to get old.

The down side--I have more doctor's appointments than usual. I need help keeping up with them. And they are for things that might--might--turn out to be serious. Also, I can't eat junk food like I used to without having to pay the price for it later. And really difficult to concentrate for more than a couple minutes at a time, when before I could focus on something for hours.

There are up sides, though--yeah, I'm fat, but I don't give a sh!t. I've never been much to look at anyways and in my old age I've finally accepted the fact that I'm ugly. Hell, I embrace my ugliness. It's a trademark. Oddly enough people seem to like me better now that I've stopped worrying about it.

Also, getting older means things that were a huge deal before are not such a big deal now. Like sex. It's been a while for me . . . a long while, we're getting near the decade mark at this writing . . . and it's simply not that big of a deal for me. I was having the occassional hookup before, which were fun for a little while, but they were with women who I could never see myself having anything long-term with. It would be nice to get laid every now and then, just to see if I still remember where everything is, but it would be even nicer if it were with someone who I'd want to stick around for a while. Just for a change. If I can't have that I think, at least for now, I'd rather just have nothing. I may feel differently if my dry spell continues, and it probably will, since I'm not actually out looking around anymore.

Speaking of love, what do you think of this article? It's from CNN.com and it's about how we sabatoge ourselves by dissing the people in our life when they attempt to demonstrate their love for us. I thought it was pretty much dead on--I saw myself in it, along with other people I know. Give it read, post your thoughts.

I'm still working on rewrites of my spec script. I'm happy with most of it, but there are a couple of little plot points that are really stupid. And some other things I think need to be adjusted. I'm going to wait until this weekend so I can rewrite the whole thing in one sitting--it'll give me a better idea as to how the whole thing flows that way. Instead of doing a few pages every day.


Right now I'm listening to Epica's Classical Conspiracy--a live album recorded with a full ochestra and chorus. Like their music was meant to be heard. You'll like it. Check it out!