Travelers

I can tell from the look in your eyes

you're lost like me, you're scared but you're free

You may think you've found the perfect disguise

But you know we can tell our own kind

You're missing, you don't want to be found

I see it in your face, you're out of place

you can vanish without making a sound

it's like you were never there

But I know that you're tired, like me

I know that your wired, like me

Rid of your ties, so wild and free

I know that your scared, like me . . .

I can tell from the look in your eyes

you're lost like me, you're scared but you're free

You may think you've found the perfect disguise

but you know we can tell our own kind

I know that you're scared, like me . . .

words and music by J Franklin Evans

Okay

I know one day I'm gonna burn

but not today. Not today

I know one day I'm gonna learn

but not today. No, not today.

I know one day it'll all end

until then I'll stay your friend

I know I'm gonna burn, but not today

I know one day I'm gonna forget

but not today. Not today.

I know one day but no, not yet.

Not today. Yes, not today.

I heard you call my name

I abandoned you just the same

I know I'll forget, but not today.

You think I'd know for sure by now

not matter what I say, or how I disavow

I do the same thing I get the same story

You think I'd know for sure by now

I know it's gonna get better than this

but not today. No not today.

There's a you and me but no us.

Not today. No, not today.

I don't regret what I have done

It ended badly but I had fun

It's gonna get better but not today.

words and music by J Franklin Evans

Dysphoria

I open my eyes in the darkness


Images in my mind holding sway

Feeling the fears of half a million years

Unable to face the day



I close my eyes in the darkness

What does it matter anyway?

Shed or unshed, tears are still tears

And dead memories come out to play



And I wonder what I could have done . . .



I hear your lies in the darkness

Swearing you’ll always be true

As the dawn nears the haziness clears

I was always right to doubt you



My love dies in the darkness

Along with my dreams about you

After all these years I finally feel these fears

But I feel nothing, too



And I wish I could be different . . .



I really wish I knew how it felt

That feeling so many claim to feel

In place of this deep and cold numbness

A gaping wound which will not heal



I live my life in the darkness

And I will until the end

I’m not secretive I just got no alternative

No intention to offend



I’ll end my life in the darkness

Going out like I came in

Unknown, unknowable, the pain so unbearable

Like my whole life has been



And I just want it to be over . . .



By J Franklin Evans